I kinda broke down last night when I thought I wasn't understanding my keyboard stuff from my book. I have the teacher I auditioned for and he kinda intimidates me. However, I found out today I'm not the only one intimidated by him. It made me feel better. I just need to focus on keyboard and Aural Skills and all my other classes. I wanna succeed.

So I'm just saying this now, but I think I'm gonna be on the computer less now. I'll check up and look at my LJ everyday, though. But I won't be on msn to talk a lot now because of college. I need to focus on my stuff and practice and work hard for this. I wanna do well and I don't want to fail. I'll be on more during the weekends, though, unless I get that job.

I love you guys and please comment on my LJ posts (if I talk to you on msn especially), so I can talk to you in some form during the week. <3

The big day is tomorrow. My first day of college! But first let me explain all that has happened lately.

So I finally got the email from Soojeong Lee, the DMA & Coordinator of Vocal Studies @ TWU. Which means my vocal audition date has been decided. It'll be on August 28 at 10:44 AM and I'm SO EFFING NERVOUS. HVBCUJDHGSVXL I have hardly practiced singing and I have to do two songs. I'm guessing I'll do the two songs I sang when I auditioned for the scholarship. Gah, I wish I didn't have to audition. I'm so nervous when it comes to judging me singing. That just puts pressure on me. Pressure + Me = EXPLOSION.

I'll have to change the time anyway though probably because my keyboard assessment is at 10:50 that day and the voice audition should take 8 minutes. Still this is freaking me out anyway. I wonder why I'm even choosing a career in music if I get so nervous about performing. *sighs*

I wish my life was more interesting to write about at the moment because I haven't made a post in weeks. D8 Sure it has some good things going for it, but it's been so uneventful. My fault, I guess.

YOU KNOW!

 

So my birthday was on Thursday and I turned 18! Of course I don't feel the same, but people might look at me a bit differently now? Dunno.

Orientation is Monday and Tuesday. I'm nervous about the test, but Mom said not to worry. As long as I do my best and the outcome will be fine. She says she'll pay for everything and everything is fine, so I'll trust her. So it's a mixed feeling all because of that test. if it wasn't for that, I would be totally excited about going.

I started getting into Umineko No Naku Koro Ni; which is from 07th Expansion, the people who did Higurashi. I'm thinking about buying the game that has episodes 1-4 and then using the translation pack on it. The anime has started and the opening is AMAZING. I love the song.

I'm also getting my wisdom teeth taken out this month. Thursday I get two of them taken out and then the other two closer to the end of the month. I wish they could all be taken out at once, but whatever. I actually have my bottom left wisdom tooth starting to show up out of the skin and it hurts if I touch it. I'll probably have my left side of my mouth taken out first.

Juu, one of my best online friends, is going through a hard time right now and is taking a break for the time being from msn and such. She's been going through some tough times the past few months and it's bothering me. I want things to go her way for once and things to be good, you know? She said not to worry though, so I'll trust her and hope things go well.

I am so fucking pissed right now. At orientation I have to take a math test. I didn't think I was going to have to take anymore tests and they throw this shit at me. I don't wanna take anymore tests. I'm already stressed out as it is. This sucks so much.

I'm seriously tired of the dumbest stuff happening to me lately. It's pissing me off so easy. I wanna scream. FML.

The other night we had a storm in Texas. Really big thunder and lightning and our power went on and off a few times that evening. I couldn't sleep and put some new batteries in my flashlight and looked at the signatures in my yearbook that I hadn't looked over all of still. It was actually kinda funny, just about every single one said about how I'm such a sweet girl and that I have such a beautiful voice. It makes me feel better about myself, even though quite a few are people I'm not that close to. It felt kinda repetitive after awhile, though. But it was still nice. That same time Ian was across the street raiding on WOW with friends when he comes into the house and say LOOK OUTSIDE THE TREE and we're all confused until we go outside and the tree in our front yard is collapsed on the ground. It was a huge tree and sad to see it fallen. Hardly any of it was left standing. The power was out by the time I was back inside and couldn't sleep cause the fan wasn't on.

So I got a digital camera and a gps yesterday. I did it for the fact that I had so much money from graduation and I needed a gps so I wont get lost, lol. The camera I have been wanting to get one and take pictures and do video adventures and whatnot. I tooka few videos and then took a few pictures of the tree. I still need to open up the gps and learn how to use everything, though...

Today, we had the guys who trimmed our trees come and cut down the tree that fell from the strong wind the other night from that storm. Watching them cut it apart was pretty sad, since that tree had been there when we moved there before me and Ian were born. It was also really weird how such a huge tree fell from wind. A section of the fence in the backyard also fell, but a little tree we have been growing in the backyard didn't break at all. It's puny! But it was sad cause now the tree is a very low to the ground stump. I took a picture of that, too.

My mom just gave me a letter awhile ago. I thought it would be some more graduation money. It was a letter from TWU. I was like OH GOD. I failed at opening the envelope. I can never do that. Ian didn't help commenting at my fail envelope opening, too. Not helping, Ian. I opened it and started pulling out the letter and some confetti came out of it. My mom gave me a :D face and went to go dump out the confetti from the letter. She asked me if I wanted to read it and I said YES. I was accepted. I was so happyyyyyyyy. But because I didn't make the requirement of the ACT, I'm going to be on a provisional basis for the fall. I'll have to take a certain one credit class for transition to TWU, only 4 classes to take and have to see a counselour 3 times a semester to check my grades. I must maintain atleast a C average. It will be removed if I maintain all those requirements. Bah I'm so excited and nervous! I'm gonna have to take an accuplacer test and go to an orientation thing in July. Wish me luck on my studying!

Snagged it from juujuu119

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

( My Weekend... )

So I got back last night around 10. It was a really busy trip and hectic as hell. Story time, kids!